it happened to me too.thirtenn years ago, as i leaved for europe, my girlfriend had broken up with me.
time had passed. nowadays wenn i am alone , sometimes i still think about her till it hurts. i know it hurts u now too, probably much more...but what else can we do ????Beliving in it so long , we are all out of love.
life is not the way i (we) hoped ,or how i (we)planed .most of us shall never forget his or her first lover.so take the momery with u, and live with it.
at the end we can\t take nothing out of our lifes, only the sweet memories can warm our hearts up.